Flight

Friday, March 30, 2007

I'm flooded with pain and confusion. I just could not deal with all of these. Really.

I'm leaving the country in 5 hours. Well, hoping to leave. Yet I could not feel the excitement. I just could not care anymore. I'm numbed by what's happening around me. The heat is making my life hell and I'm sooo stressed out.

I have another dilemma regarding my acads. I have two unfinished projects and an uncertain, dark future with an old enemy, Electricity. Man, I haaate this subject. Although I feel it's been pretty easy this sem, it's still a problem. It's evil I tell you. Evil.

It's really depressing how just last week I was unburdened by our Holy Supper and now, I'm back to my bad ways and I have to worry about tons of psybaggage. Now, I learned for a fact that:

• anyone is addicted to something. A vice, a drug, a bad habit.
• anyone will declare to the world that he has control over the matter. He will stop, refuse, and even TRY to resolve it. But these things are just so. damn. IRRESISTABLE. New Year resolutions my ass.
• anyone will succumb to these weaknesses in their most fragile moments. Stressed, depressed or just plain annoyed.
• anyone can never be perfect. You are bound to do lots of stupid stuff. Deal with it. Tomorrow's a new day. Deal again.
• anyone just have to wait where these things take them. It is going somewhere. Just don't think to much about it.

So I'm giving up. Or more like giving in. That's my key to happiness from now on.

Pilipinas, kitakits in two weeks. I know it will all be better when I come back.

Labels: emo, life

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4:40 PM
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Snippet # 1: Make Over

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I'm on a mission this week.

Mayroon kaming Special Gathering sa church this coming Sunday so I have to get ready.

So in the coming days you will see me "transform" spiritually, mentally, "academically" and maybe, physically. Hehe. I'm not turning into a werewolf, but I need a total self overhaul. Lalayo muna ako sa mga tukso at kalayawan (ang lalim a) this week.

The thing is napaka-timely ng naiisip kong "pagbabago". Why?

• This is the final week of classes so I really need to do serious business. I have 3 pending CS projects to finish. Sana makatulong ako kahit kaunti sa groupmates ko.
• I have a somewhat alarming epiphany just days ago. I really need to lose weight. Most of my clothes do not fit already. And the few ones that do do not fit me nicely. And I'm getting so much (bad) attention. My family and I are set to fly to San Francisco next week; And foreign country = tons of food. So I have 8 days to starve myself to "fitness". No rice and desserts, FOR NOW.
• I'm formulating a new blog concept. It's quite similar to The 21st Project, which sadly was a failure. Pero inspired ulit ako because my life will enter a very drastic change next year. And it's not just graduation. :)
  

So for the coming entries, snippets lang muna and updates ang mapopost ko. Hindi ko kasi ma-update lagi kung serious-mode yung posts. Hehe.

Now for some photos of KADBin after Master Minds '07 last Sunday:

Labels: church, emo, kadbin, life, snippet

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10:15 AM
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